John 3:19 – 21
“This is the crisis we are in: God-light streamed into the world, but men and women everywhere ran for the darkness. They went for the darkness because they were not really interested in pleasing God. Everyone who makes a practice of doing evil, addicted to denial and illusion, hates God-light and won’t come near it, fearing a painful exposure. But anyone working and living in truth and reality welcomes God-light so the work can be seen for the God-work it is.”
I live in Tallinn, Estonia. We are so far North, that in the summer we experience nearly endless sunlight and, in the winter, seemingly endless darkness.
Every Spring, on the first day the Sun makes its return, I feel like a vampire. I have been in the darkness so long, that the first few moments of light feel painful. My eyes uncontrollably squint, my forehead crunches up and my hand tries to shelter my face. If I followed my body’s gut reaction when the sun reappears, I may run for a darker place—a place that feels more like home to me.
But, I know the wonders of the sun, light and summer months approaching. So instead, I endure the discomfort for the prize of acclimating my body to feel free in the light once again.
Our souls are the same. Although all of us have experienced shades of light in our lives, when the bright and powerful light of God gets close, we run away. We are afraid of being vulnerable, of feeling exposed, or even mocked by our companions remaining in the darkness.
You’re right. Those first few moments in the light may be uncomfortable. It may take everything within you to stand firm and not retreat. Trust me. The feeling will pass, the sun will shine and heal, life-hope returns, and the summer months of your life begin.
Jesus said, “For a brief time still, the light is among you. Walk by the light you have so darkness doesn’t destroy you. If you walk in darkness, you don’t know where you’re going. As you have the light, believe in the light. Then the light will be within you, and shining through your lives. You’ll be children of light.” – John 12:35
Begin your day by entering into the light. I recommend this song that asks for God to “come like the dawn” into our lives.
I dedicate this series of devotional writings to my grandfather, Roger Crowell, who passed away on March 31. He was the ultimate lover of devotional books. He had an unbreakable habit of waking up every morning and connecting with God through the writings of others.
Pa, I am glad you are now constantly in His presence.
Love, Your granddaughter — Olivia Puccini